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Chat room encounter

Online, I accidentally fell in love with a married man, 5 years, left me only pain. It was a fall, a lonely season. Late one night, out of curiosity and boredom, I came to a site of a chat room. I heard a Fa male friend before, he went to chat rooms is only one purpose, which is the opposite sex to find prey. He would be the one phrase --- "To me sex", then copy, paste, click on the name of women, Enter; then paste, point, Enter ... ... This is his modus operandi in the chat room. Extensive cultivation, simple, mechanical, and effective. According to him, response rates are generally not more than one-twentieth. A chat room, the height of several hundred people, sometimes accounting for one third of women. If you have the patience, there are always five or six responses. Of course the majority response is negative, such as: rolling; aside so. These of course say nothing of his hope. Some are neutral, such as: Oh; not interested. They have doors, but also to further probe. The rest is a positive response. That is not only not offensive, but show some interest. This situation rarely. Really is how scarce.

He told me he was "because of who you Tips", I also not agree, that there be so easy on you as a woman's? Did not think of that night, I met a man asked me, "To me sex", I actually hesitated to say "there." I even put my phone number and told him. I do not know how I was thinking, maybe it is too empty and too boring.

I did not expect was how so much courage. Met him, I went to see. Then take him to the late night, and finally to his home to see his dish, I went to. See the middle of the night, he took me in his arms, very exciting feeling. Unexpected to happen next, he and I slept in a bed, actually nothing had happened. He said he Internet becomes very "rogue", in fact, his life is not the case. Perhaps he did not think I look so beautiful and so young, he said he probably fell in love with me, it is love at first sight. His words moved me. I began to like him.

I paid a heavy price

Since then, he would always call me. We will always come out late night. He gave me the impression that the sophisticated and mature, but without losing outspoken. Second meeting, he drove me to the beach barbecue. We sat on the beach, he saw I was a little tired, I have them massage, talk to my solution to release fatigue. He may be afraid of me nervous, would like to use the shortest possible time to alleviate the pressure on my right. Big now, has not been a man massage, which I think curious and exciting.

Later later, I accepted him. I feel the blend of soul and body, I knew I was that he conquered. Soon, I fell in love with him. I can see, he is not deep but my Sheshi little girl has a lot of ideas are very happy.

This way, I became her girlfriend.

I later learned, in fact, he is not money, not even a formal job. His pocket money, he opened the car and so are his wife to buy. However, he then lied to me, that he divorced his ex-wife awarded child. I was so naive to think that he loves me, definitely going to marry me. Unexpectedly, he did not divorce. He and I together, very like a single man camouflage, and I slept together, and gave his wife has never been found, perhaps too clear that he means, maybe his wife did not care about what he was outside.

Year I nearly died in the hospital suffering from an ectopic pregnancy, a good sister to take care of me. This is just my sister and my boyfriend, family and neighbors, if not a good sister who told me he did not divorce, at home and two lovely children, perhaps he was "single" lie is going to last, maybe now I still immersed in his dream wedding.

Out from the hospital, I wake up. He will not abandon his wife and two lovely children and me. I do not will a divorced, so older people into the front of my parents. This is what I have been married men to maintain relations in the rational. Sometimes, I really hope I can desperate love. Not consider many worldly things. But no, he's too disappointed me. In fact, he and my contacts just for sex, I can only attract his only physical. However, I for his 3rd abortion, there is an ectopic pregnancy, this lesson is too strong. When I came out from the hospital, he actually said to me, we're just friends better. I was on fire, you still do not these people human? Even if the break up, do not be so cruel, at least not now present, come here.

I just want to get back at him

Do not know why, and he maintained a five-year relationship, the final determination and his broken. In 5 years time, he told me of the so-called love is only flesh, there is no other. I know he never loved me with heart, because he still maintain his marriage, not because of me and his wife divorced, I would not do any damage to his marriage thing.

Ridiculous is the relationship between me and him, his wife never knew. Indeed, as later he and I rarely meet up to see once a month, he does not always have to wait until his wife only when I see him. Although the broken relationship, but I know I will never forget him because he is my man. I really loved all of whom have paid for the first man. Perhaps now that these little ridiculous. He let me down on the men. He wanted me to provide him with a child, I know he just to test me to see I was not really in love with him. He really selfish, in addition to himself, he could not love anyone.

My mother when I was a secondary school of the year, made it clear to me that there are three men in the world can not love: 1, prodigal 2, 3 literary young, married man. I still can not do ah.

My body is very poor, one to think of it I hate him --- the married man. Now I simply live in hatred among. Sometimes, I said to myself, I live only one objective, that is revenge. I try to let his wife know that I exist.